Jacelyn.

2009-12-07T08:49:00.000-08:00

It's finally rainbow after the rain. ;)

Many stuffs happened to me, be it happy or unhappy. But i was strong enough to overcome them. People eventually has to leave, it's just the time. Life's too short to be living with regrets and be sad, so live life to the fullest and love your loved ones. I hope those who had left me, are now in a peaceful place and I will pray that you're in one. I'll always remember each and everyone of you, You all will always stay in my heart. I will make sure, I study hard and be a clever and bright girl next time. I promised, I will study hard for my future and never let you all down. And, I will always be the little girl of the family. I miss you guys too much, I love you guys too much! I'll always remember everything that had happened to us. I will not forget you. Love, love,love! BE HAPPY! :D

And thanks to Mummy, and family members for always being there for me, no matter what. Be sure that I'll too be there for you guys! With love, me! ;)

And Mummy, I'm missing you and I wanna see you really soon. In miss you so much so that, I dreamt of you when i sleep, that night. Just know that, Babyy loves Mummy lots, lots,lots! :D From, me!

2009-12-06T08:56:00.000-08:00

Mummy's BACK! ;)

I'm happy cause Mummy's back to singapore and we can sms! Yeah! :D
Anyway, Darling's at Taiwan now. Kinda miss her. :( Darling be only coming back on the 13th, which mean sunday. And I might be meeting her after I get my results on the 18th. ;) See you really soon, I know you miss me! Hahahaha!

Girlfriend Liyana is quitting her job, tomorrow. Sad to say. Cause she can't stand her unreasonable and ridiculous manager. So ya, she won't be working after tomorrow and will have more time for the girls! (: And it's been long time since I meet up with the girls. I miss Liyana, Easwari, Habibah, Senthuja,Jiaqi, Emelia! ( I know you guys miss me too.) Haha!

And I can't wait to see my classmates on the results taking day! LOVE-4/1! ;)

2009-12-06T00:24:00.000-08:00

Nothing last longer than memories.
Mummy is still at KL, i supposed. I haven't been hearing from her and I seriously wonder, what's mummy doing now. :(

Mummy, we haven't been msging since yesterday till this moment. :( I wonder, when are you coming back?! I miss you too much!!

Darling's too away from singapore. :( She's now on her way to Taiwan! Darling, I miss you too!! Do remember to take care ok, Miss me too!

2009-12-04T23:34:00.000-08:00

Mummy's away to KL, I'm like missing her so much!
I'm not feeling good, I need Mummy.
I'm not in the good mood, I want to read Mummy's message.
I want Mummy, I want Mummy!
And we can't sms now and tonight. :(

But, Mummy Mummy is coming back tomorrow!
And Mummy, Thanks for everything! I know you'll be there for me. Muackssss, Love you.
And I too know, you will miss me, cause I'm too lovely for you, to forget and not miss right?! HAHAHAHA! I love mummy too much!

2009-12-03T09:13:00.001-08:00

Okay, I'm like the Happiest girl alive now, now, now!
Yes, I mean this moment!

I've just recevied the Edusave Scholarship letter! Which means my efforts put in to study for Preliminary and such are all paid off! Yes, I'm loving it! And Dad promise to let me change my phone with the money!!! Yeah, Yeah! Papa, wan sui! ;) I want to get the Iphone (apple) Woohoo! I can't wait for alot of things!

Damn, I can't wait for results, I can't wait for christmas, I can't wait for New year (2010), I can't wait for 10th Jan, I can't wait for Lunar New Year! ;) There's so many things i'm looking forward. Haha.

And Now, Mummy's going over to KL for a holiday trip this coming weekend. :( Alittle sad, cause I'll be missing mummy like hell and crazy. Happy cause Mummy's enjoying herself. (: And I too will be going over to Dayi's place to stay for fun and play play play with my cousins! I'm like so looking forward to it.
Mummy, baby's damn going to miss you like crazy! Do remember to miss me too okay?! Muackssss, I love you to the maxx! :D

Today house no electricity and no water cause the worker need to do something in progressing of the new lifts. So mah fan! -.-
So went to Aunt's salon to wash my hair, shiok! :)
And now, my hair smells nice, nice,nice!

And Darling be going to taiwan soon, I'm sooo like too going to miss her!!! She's going till 13th dec!! Remember to take care okay?! I miss you and I love you too! Thanks darl!
And it's 15 more days to go before the results will be out!! Arghhh, 15more days (2weeks)
And Miss Ayuni smsed me(: So sweet, she say she miss me alot! Haha, I miss you too lovely!!! :D

I wanna watch Christmas Carol, anyone? (:

2009-12-01T23:56:00.000-08:00

Says: I miss Mummy too much, so much so that I dreamt of her last night. (:

Manicure and Pedicure yesterday. ;) Spent like 32bucks just for that. And now, It's nicely done up, Loving it soooo much! ;) Haha..
Tomorrow might be meeting girlfriend Jiaqi for awhile, cause she wants me to accompany her to go cut her fringe. -.-
Yesterday night, chatted with bestie Liyana for like 45mins! Cool, and she's a nice person to have around, joking here and there. And we've got so many things to talk talk about!
Haha, Missing the girls.

And it's like 17more days to go,go,go,go! As the days comes nearer, the fear in me, gets stronger and stronger. I wonder how my reaction will be! Tears of joy or disappointed?! Part of me, so excited to know the resutls, part of me, so nervous and worried.

And Mummy, thanks for being the one who's always there to sayang me. And know that, Whenever I've mere thought of losing you, I really feel like tearing down. :( I want Mummy now and of course, FOREVER! ;) Thanks for doting on me with all you can! I love you too much. Muackssss, Muackssss! Babyyy Loves Mummyyy!!

2009-11-30T08:59:00.000-08:00

It's really nice to hear your voice, calling my name. (:
It's 18more days to go,go,go! :D

Today's shopping trip to Tampines was cancelled as Mum has an urgent meeting to attend and she left us and grandparents to go Causeway point to get the things. -.-
Tomorrow be going to do Pedicure and Manicure! ;) Hmmmm, What colour shld I put this time round? :P

And I was so pissed off by almost everyone in the family. Know why? They kept on forcing me to drink the smelly, bitter-ish chinese medicine. :(( The taste is super-duper weird! -.-
Makes me wanna puke each time I smell it. :( I want to stop all this, faster get better and get over and done with this irritating thingy!

MUMMY, HELP ME! :P

2009-11-29T07:50:00.000-08:00

Having you, is a blessing. (:

Today, had steamboat lunch with my Mum's side. Da yi,xiaoyi's family were here at my place too. Everyone except for jiu jiu cause he needs to work. Xiaoyi came over to my place early and disturbed me while i'm sleeping. She used my carebear to hit my face. Humph!!!!

Asked me wake up early just to help her prepare the soup base for steamboat! -.- Steamboat was yummy, Da yi bought many fishballs! ^_^

After eating, all were sitting and slacking and the kids brought up the discussions about

christmas celebration. ;) But it's not confirm whether whose place are we celebrating. Lol!

Tomorrow Mum's not working as she took off day for don't know what reason. She's bringing us to tampines for little-shopping trip. ;) I wanna buy a lady bag, cause my bag's old. -.- Haha.

And ya! I'm missing dearest Mummy now,now, now!

2009-11-28T08:00:00.000-08:00

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GUGU! ;)
Secondly, Was surprised to see Mr Teo and Mrs Fong at khatib today! Today, Naval Base Secondary has a coloboration partnership with Nee Soon South RC. I saw the students from my school, putting up their nice artwork! ;) And saw them performing too.

Today, I went to ttsh early in the morning with my family, cousins were there too. Somehow today was a miserable day for me. The more I see my great-aunt, the more I wanna cure her! Okay, whatever! I'm just hoping and praying hard that, there'll be a miracle that might happen to her soon! I miss you.

And tomorrow be having family steamboat lunch with grandparents, big aunt's family, small aunt's family and my family at my place. (;

And hell yea, I will never forget about saying some words about my mummy everyday in my blog.. Mummy, baby's starting to miss you now. And mummy, thanks for the huggies ya! I love you to the maxx and thanks for always being there for me, when I needed you the most. And I wanna be the little girl of yours, who will always be clinging onto you and with you, showering me with your love, care and concern! Muackssss, Mummy. JINWEN LOVES MUMMY!

2009-11-27T07:40:00.000-08:00

I prayed for your recovery. (:
I'm down now. :(

2nd Great-aunt is in the hospital now, visited her today. I didn't know how to react when I saw her lying on the hospital bed. She looks totally different from how I've seen her last time. I totally felt blank! I didn't expected her to be in this state. She couldn't talk much and her talking are no more clear now. She's down with cancer and the cells has spread all over her body. And it's the very last stage of the cancer. :'(((

Dear God, Please blessed my 2nd great-aunt. I've already lose someone, i dun wish to lose anyone now. :((( 2nd great-aunt, please get well soon! I still wanna taste ur cooking!

I seriously, don't know how to react now. :( I feel lousy cause I couldn't help her. Each time I see my grandma crying over, I really wish I was the one, hugging her and giving her the comfort. Grandma kept on blaming herself for not being a good sis to great aunt. I feel bad. Grandma, Please don't feel that way. Everything that has happened to great aunt, wasn't because of you, trust me. I know you love her, so do I. I know you can't bear to leave her, so do I. I hope you don't feel this way, I love you too much, grandma! I know, you won't be able to be reading my blog and seeing this post, but know that, I'll always be there for you. You gotta be strong, ahma and I will too be strong! ;)

Today, I went to jurong swimming complex for swimming with dad's side. I wasn't enjoying myself that much, but cousins were there to make me happy.
And I wanna thank Mummy for giving me her imaginary big hug. And Mummy, baby gotten cuts from the pool today and gotten 4 mosquito bites yesterday. Now it's swallon and itchy!

2009-11-26T07:59:00.000-08:00

Zoo with Mummy today! ;)

I went to the Singapore Zoo with Mummy today! ;)

Mummy called me and asked if I wanna accompany her to the singapore zoo cause her students are there for an attachment(: And Mummy said it's gonna be part of my birthday treat! ;) Haha. Thanks Mummy for treating me ya, and I really love spending time with you.

And ya, We saw many of Mummy's friends there! ;) HAHAHAHA, all the different types of monkey! Haha. And Mummy even said, Monkey looks like me?! Haha.

And I really do enjoyed myself during the Asia Elephants showtime! ;) Mummy's 2nd Favourite animal! Hahahaha.

Afterall, THANKS MUMMY!

I LOVE YOU TO THE MAXX~!

You'll never know how precious and important you are, to me! ;)

*Giving flying kisses to you*

Muackssssssssssss!

2009-11-25T07:48:00.000-08:00

You know someone is really precious to you when the mere thought of losing them, tears you down.

I'm missing my girlfriends already. Missing my bunch of 'donkeys' too.
I wanna see them soon,soon,soon! ;)
I'm too missing my dearest Mummy, I really wonder when will I only get to see her?!

Today, my right eye blood vessel burst, so my eye was really red and I of course, told my mummy. She told me not to watch the teevee and play computer games but go to sleep to rest my eyes. I listened to Mummy's word, went to sleep and rest rest my eyes. ;) Mummy, Baby's good girl right?! :)

Next week, I might be having a date with my bunch of 'donkeys'! I miss them badly, it's been months since I last seen them. My last time seeing them was before the school close. which is like 9th october?! Lol! So long didn't see the donkeys! Especially the one who always follow mummy and call me a 'Monkey'. HAHAHAHA!

Now, my eyes are better, no more red, just alittle swallon. Should be alright tomorrow ba! ;)
NIGHT PEOPLE!
And lastly, I miss PRETTYMUMMY!!!!

2009-11-24T08:19:00.001-08:00

You will never understand what's all behind the smile of mine.

Today, went to Amk Hub with cousin and sister to find the right gift for my aunt. (Gugu)
Went walking around the whole hub, just couldn't think of what to get. Then decided to go for lunch first. Pepper lunch! ;) Yummy! After lunch, decided to even go for dessert at sweetspring.
Had Mango sago + Mango snow ice. (:

Plan for this coming public holiday. (:
Swimming with cousins in the morning at jurong.(: I can't wait to go! Haha.

I saw Liyana bestie today! ;) She was like freaking blur when she saw me! Lol! Liyana is Michael Jackson's sister. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

And I'm missing Dearest Mummy alot-alot-alot-alot now!
I wanna see her soon,soon,soon! But i seriosuly wonder when does she have the time to meet me. She's like forever busy and having something on, when it comes to meeting me. :P
Humph!

2009-11-22T07:03:00.000-08:00

What's gone, will be gone forever.

Firstly, Congratulations to Ms Sakinah on her wedding. (:
Haha. Attended her wedding today, she's so pretty today and till almost couldn't recognise her. Haha, she look pretty and gorgeous today! ;)
After which, the girls went to orchard to walk around and took photos. (:
Then headed to bugis junction for late late lunch then went to take neoprints again! ;D
Nice, Nice! Love the neoprints! Haha

And I noticed something today, my eyes are so small today. Many photos turn out that my eyes can't see. Lol. -.-

Something bad happened to me last night, but I don't wish to talk about it.
And I'm hell missing my mummy!!! :(
I wonder when will I be able to see mummy, it's been 4weeks since we last meet up. :(
Mummy, I MISS YOU!

2009-11-21T07:41:00.000-08:00

First thing first, I wanna thank Mummy for being there for me, especially today when I needed you the most. Thanks for the imaginary hug you gave to me ya, Though it's not really acted out, but still I can feel the hug and I really appreciated your concern. (: Muackssss, baby loves Mummy. (:

Tomorrow I'm going for Ms Sakinah's wedding at jelutung CC which is just near to Easwari's place. (: All the girls be going and including some guys, but don't know who. Haha.
After that, think I'm going out maybe to Orchard Central with the girls for movie and dinner. (:
Family's going to Sakura tomorrow without me. :( Lol.

And my irritating flu's back. :(
And thanks to grandma for cooking dinner for me though she's too not in the mood. I just love Grandma's cooking, so delicious and Yummy! Grandma's so good, know I'm not in the good mood to eat, so she cooked something light for me, yellow mee soup with fishballs! My favourite! And she even cut the fishballs into small pieces just for me. So nice right? Love you, ahma! ;)

2009-11-18T07:59:00.000-08:00

Mummy's the best! ;)

Mummy, I love you to the max! Thanks for calling today and it's really sweet to hear Mummy's voice. (: Though what I wanted was to see Mummy, but voice is better than nothing. (: Haha.

Life is full of ups and Downs. It's always depends on how you look at those imperfections. Many ways to deal with those imperfections, positive ways or negative ways..

Life is also full of people entering anda leaving your life. This one, you have to be really positive instead of being the opposite. God will eventually take away everyone when time comes. It only depends on when. Sometimes, the person or your loved ones is really good and that's why god wants to take them away too. God wants them too, cause they are really good. And sometimes you will regret not appreciating them, while they are still with you. But what's gone, will be gone forever.

There goes a saying: Treasure the ones you loves and don't regret when they decides to leave you. And this saying, really meant for me. I will treasure all my loved ones. People including, My grandparents, My Parents, My family, My Mummy and Daddy, My Dora-Darling, My friends and those who treats me right! ;) And I really do loves them! :D

2009-11-18T23:11:00.000-08:00

Because everytime I see you smile,and together with that happiness in your cherry eyes,my heart would never fail to enlighten up with a sense of warmth wrapped around with it. ♥

I'll always remembered, what you've done for me. You'll always and forever be kept in my heart. ♥ I love you to the maxxx!

I want to be with you till the end and even if you have to wear ahma clothings, I'll still be proud to walk down the street with you, wearing ahma clothings and telling the world you're the one. ♥

2009-11-17T07:50:00.000-08:00

I never knew I was such a Non-understanding girl to you. Really never knew that till you told me a sentence today and when you even have to thanked me for letting you do your own things without me disturbing. You can always tell me directly if you find me irritating or disturbing. Maybe I've really failed by being a good girl towards you ever since. Maybe having me as your girl is really a tourture for you right? Sorry for all those troubles and argued I've created.

Did you notice that my messages to you, didn't include the word, 'baby' ? I didn't called myself your baby anymore ever since yesterday cause I just find myself really not worth enough for this name.

SORRY, I'VE FAILED HORRIBLY!

2009-11-16T22:19:00.000-08:00

Many events coming up next, next, next~!

22nd November 2009.
1. Family excerise day. Badminton, i supposed.
2. Darren's Birthday.
3. Ms Sakinah's wedding.
4. Girlfriend's day together.
5. Xiaoyi's Birthday.

28th November 2009.
1. Gugu's Birthday celebration at ahma's place.

30th November 2009.
1. Cousin Rachel's Birthday celebration at don'tknowwhere.

5th December 2009.
1. Ahma's birthday lunch at don'tknowwhere.

18th December 2009.
1. 'N' Levels Results!

19th December 2009.
1. Celebrations of birthday(s) and Celebrations of N levels results with Mummy and girls.

24th December 2009.
1.Christmas Celebration with Mum's side at night.
2. Christmas Celebration together with girlfriends.
3. Mummy, I too wanna celebrate Christmas with you and you!

31st December 2009.
1. New Year celebration with family.

Events till here, more more to come, i supposed. (:
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Mummy, I just wanna say to you.
It's ok if you don't wish to call me 'baby' anymore. I won't blame you, cause maybe the word 'baby' doesn't belongs to me and it's not meant for me. I hope whatever I've said here, Doesn't irritates you.
Lastly, I love you to the max and I just wanna tell you, I wanna be with you till the very end and even if we are really old already, i still wanna wear those ahma's clothing together with you, walking closely together. ;) Muackssss, Muackssss, Muackssss.

2009-11-15T20:15:00.000-08:00

THINK THINK THINK!

I've been doing alot of thinking for the past few days. I really went deep into my mind and think. I think of many different things, one after one. There's many questions when i think, i didn't know how to answer to myself.

First, I think-ed of myself. Alot of my family thinks i'm lazy and useless. I really wonder, what makes them says that. And they always likes to side my sister instead of me. They always think i'm the one always becoming the bad person. Always me and Never my sister! Relatives says that i'm being pampered too much? But hey, who's the one being pampered too much? Me, my sis or my bro?! I'm so not pampered by the family. Everything I've to do. And my sister always bully me. :( And onces she complain to my mum, i've to do the things for her! Like, going downstair to get somethings for the family, my sister won't even do it! Everything I've to do! It's so unfair, you know. Ever thought how i feel? Don't always say I'm pampered!

And i really feel useless and lousy when people compared me together with my sister. Reason being, she's better than me in almost everything. Even for studies. :( Family always praised her instead of praising me.

Second, i think-ed of my Mummy.

I don't know why am I always make my Mummy irritated and angry. When she says she irritated, the next question that comes to my mind will be, I'm so irritating! Only when I'm irritating then only she can be irritated by me. I feel like a idiot, you know! I feel so lousy! I feel so useless! Each time I made mummy angry, I really don't know how to apologise. I mean, I said sorry, but the word 'Sorry' doesn't means anything. I feel really broken whenever she's angry. I feel bad. And Mummy, each time I asked you that particular question, you always get irritated. But I always have the urge to ask reasons being, I'm just so scared of losing you. :( Really, you're the person i've already considered family and what if, I lose you and not have you back? I really think alot of this particular question, Really alot! Mummy, I need you, please don't ever think of leaving me.

Third, my 'N' level results.

The fact, I never do well for my Mathematics Paper and I know most likely, I'm not going to get good marks for it. I'm so scared. As the day comes nearer and nearer, the fear in me, gets thicker and thicker. :( What if I fail my maths paper? I wouldn't be able to get those course that I want. I wouldn't be able to make my mummy proud. :( I bet, I'm just going to cry down there. Seriously too, this question strucked me really bad and hard. I'm just so scared nowwwwww!

And Dora-Darling.

Thanks for consolling for whatever I've told you. (: Thanks for the care you've given to me. And I love it when you're acting like a naggy Mum. Haha. Even set rules for me. Btw, you don't follow your own rules, Am I supposed to follow then? Haha.

Rules by Dora.

1. Drink at least 8cups of water per day.

2. Must have at least 2 meals with veg.

3. No Mac, No cold drinks.

4. Sleep early.

5. No skipping of meals.

6. Have an apple a day.

♥ Mummy matters the most!

2009-11-15T07:42:00.001-08:00

This post is specially dedicated to Jinwen's Mummy!
I'm sorry again, I made you angry and irritated again. :(
Maybe it's true, nothing i do or say, will make you happy. And almost everything I said and do, all makes you feel irritated and angry. :(
I feel so lousy, what kind of daughter am I? I'm just so not good enough for you. :(
I feel like a lousy and useless person!

And whenever mummy's loud/harsh with me, I'm so scared. :( I'm even scare when Mummy's angry with me. :( I feel so bad, making mummy angry and irritated. :( Mummy, I know whenever I ask you whether you wants me as ur baby, you will get angry and irritated. But Mummy, i asked you so many times reason being cause i'm so afraid, mummy won't be there to see me through it all. I'm seriously so afraid of losing you. I'm so scared of not having mummy beside me, supporting me, loving me, taking care of me, hugging me. :( I'm seriously very scared! :((((

Mummy, Just wanna say sorry to you again.. :( And I hope you're not angry with me. I love you alot-alot and I forever wanna be Mummy's good baby, good girl and even ur dearest girl! ;D Mummy, forgive me? :(

2009-11-14T08:07:00.000-08:00

Talked to Darling today, she's unwell. Same as me. Bad cough, but mine seems more serious.
Get well soon, darling-dora! ;)

And Mummy, Can you don't be so harsh when talking to me? I'm scared if you are angry. But i know, all of what you did, was because you just care for me. (: I know, you meant for my own sake. I know, you care for me. I know, Mummy loves me. I know, i should listen to you. Everything you do, I know, I know. Mummy ,I know everything you do for me, it's always for my own good and so, i promised i will listen to you and be as healthy as my sis. ;) Muackssss, I love you many many many!

Today, celebration for weiqiang's 21st birthday at Gugu's place. Alot people there, his friends and family. (: And he got sabo by his friends by forcing him to eat 'Durian'! Haha, we're the same, we don't eat durian except for durian cake. Haha. Lol.

And tomorrow going for pedicure.. Hmmmm, what colour should i put this time? (:
I'm still sick! Yesterday i cough-ed the whole night and vomitted. :( Ewwww, I hate myself when i'm sick. I cough till no energy to cough already lah, then got blocked nose also. Haiyahhh!

And I wanna end this post with:
I miss Mummy soooo much! I wanna see my prettyMummy, I want Mummy's hug! (:

2009-11-13T06:35:00.000-08:00

Mummy's back! ♥

Sister's away from home for 4days like cause she's having her class chalet from 13november - 17november.

Tomorrow gathering at Gugu's place, having buffet cause Weiqiang's 21st Birthday. (:

Having flu, sore throat and cough still! -.-
Wonder when will recover.
And i'm having a sexy voice now. Lol.

2009-11-11T06:17:00.000-08:00

2days down, 2more days to go.

Feeling really bad now, down with flu, cough, high fever and headache. :(

Mummy, I really wished you was here with me. I feel so uncomfortable.
I'm missing Mummy badly..

2009-11-10T08:27:00.000-08:00

I'm hell missing Mummy right now. :( I wish she was with me now. :(

Mummy, I prayed for your safety throughout the whole camp, please really do take good care of yourself. Keep the promise you had with me alright?

1 day down, 3 more days to go.

Awaiting for Mummy to come back. (: